What I would like to do right now is to write a blog post , but considering the way my day has been going , I am wondering if even that is going to go right! Talk about ‘against all odds’! Again I say, is it just me? Am I the only one who FEELS that they cannot switch off from such trivialities? I am not running a nation or indeed a vast corporate company … I am not dealing with a myriad of complex matters concerning world affairs … I am not rushed off my feet running from one place to the other without a moments breath … and yet it FEELS like I simply cannot switch off.
I just tried to do a meditation … my iPod stopped 8 times in the 20minute session … Earlier today, it took me four goes to park my car! It took me 1½ hrs to burn a reading to a CD. Eventually I turned off my computer and turned it back on and instantly everything was working again … I could have done without that time being lost and that frustration affecting my mood. On I went, determined to ‘change’ my persona, yet one thing after another has pushed me to the limits. As I say … I’m not in a war zone, I have food in my cupboard and a roof over my head ... I have EVERYTHING to be thankful for and yet … no matter how hard I am trying … today has simply got to go down as a naff day! SO what is that all about? Is it negative energies around me that are not mine? … Am I hormonal? Am I going through a shift and releasing old patterns? … Is it lingering ‘no servers’? WHAT!?
Let me say too, however you may choose to read the tone I am writing this … I am not in anger , more in frustration …and I have laughed at myself many times out loud today . All practises of ‘moving into a better space’ are failing/have failed. So … I accept this to be ‘As it is’. I am not going to force the situation any more. I am just BEING ME and the way I am FEELING. How ever much effort I have put into raising my vibration today ... it refuses to be shifted.
HOWEVER … The wonderful thing is … this ‘naff day’ is not how ‘naff days’ used to be.
THAT IS WHAT IS SO GREAT ABOUT IT!!! I AM HAVING A GREAT NAFF DAY!!
The difference BEING … that it matters not. I am totally prepared to allow it to be this way, KNOWING it won’t be this way tomorrow or even in a minute! It will change when it needs too. When whatever it is has run its course and moved on through … and there I shall be … even more aware, even more awake than I was before this day began.
There is no need to ‘fight’ any more, for the fight is over and the battle won. We are simply picking up the pieces and sorting the wheat from the chaff. We are sifting through the debris and sweeping up and out that which has had its day. As much as our hearts are in joy about this victory … we are still amongst the aftermath and the energy it carries. Yet we KNOW don’t we? We can FEEL the change that has happened. It will just take a while for the lower energies to ‘let go’ and to come join us in their rightful place or to make the choice to disperse into the coming winds and leave for good.
So there really are no more ‘naff days’ because no one can take from us that KNOWING inside that no matter what may be ‘appearing’ to upset or discomfort us on the outside of our inner knowing … the absolute CORE OF OUR BEING has taken hold in strength and TRUST … holding and anchoring THE LIGHT NOW. No longer can we be dragged under and stripped of our honour. No more can the lower frequencies ‘hold us against our will’. For we have come to KNOW OURSELVES. We have come to LOVE OURSELVES. We have come to make the change and NOW we can FEEL that change is here. It is taking place within and without … there is no denying anymore.
How proud I AM to be me! How proud I AM to be walking this Earth plane at this time. How proud I AM that I was chosen to be here.
How grateful I AM to KNOW YOU. How grateful I AM to receive all that presents itself to me in whatever form … for EVERYTHING that is in my world is showing me the NEW way of things. It is allowing me to FEEL gratitude for the highs and the lows. For now the lows are nowhere near as low as they used to be. They cannot be … because WE cannot BE in a level that is out of our ‘range’. Which just goes to prove how much we have lifted our consciousness.
So do you know what? … In actual fact …… looking at it like that … today has been a great day. It came to show me what a trooper I AM!! How far I have come in understanding that I am doing what I came here to do. Today I thought I was off track and blaming all on ‘outside energies’. But no … I was/am right on course … I just needed to write this blog in order to work that out.
Don’t you just LOVE it? There is reason in ALL things. And all things have a reason. All things.
And the bonus of all this is … I can at least cross one thing off my list that I got accomplished today … and realizing inside myself that unknowingly I have accomplished a whole lot more.
Onwards and upwards Oh Warriors of Light! Marching ever onwards in the LIGHT and the LOVE.
Not to mention being engulfed in those good old Golden Rays.
Swords of Light to the skies. Keeping your eyes there too!
Thank you for allowing me this ‘vent’ … it gave me permission to breath!